The Poston Family

I'm watching a show on fit & health called 'freebirthing' and all I have to say is that these women are crazy. They are taking chances with their children not being healthy, or in harm. One woman has never even been to a doctor and checks her blood pressure at the walmart pharmacy. Wtf? This other lady is having a water birth and the nearest hospital is 30 minutes away. The only one present in the room with her, is her husband. What if something went wrong with the baby?

I am officially 37 weeks tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited! I'm going to do everything I can to get him out. I walked amost all day yesterday. Rob is coming up this weekend and I'm going to try sex since it worked last time. I'm scared to have sex though, because it doesn't feel good at all at this point. Plus, the doctor could feel Blake's head. Is it possible for Rob to harm him at this point? It put me in labor at 34 weeks, so I'm really hoping it'll really get things going at 37.

I found stretch marks on my stomach a couple of days ago. They literally popped up out of NO WHERE. I'm not going to lie, it has made me feel like shit. Along with my double chin, and celulite elephant legs. I tried on some cotton capris at Gliks yesterday and just seeing my legs in the mirror made me put them back without trying all of them on. I had to go home after that. I'm TRYING to eat clean, but there's moments where I want to pig out on candy so bad. Like right now. I hope so bad that I'm able to get back down to 100 pounds after a few months at least. That's my first goal. Then I want to get back down to 95 eventually. It's funny that 124 pounds is over weight at my height (4'9).

Yesterday was so hectic. One of our dogs got out somehow. We walked ALL over town and my feet are in so much pain today. The cops called this morning and had him, so my dad went and picked him up. We're all so happy that he's home. It literally felt like someone in the family was kidnapped and we'd never see them again or know what happened. I am extrememly relieved.

Blake has been moving so much since last night. I want to wait til after this weekend to go into birth since Rob will be here and we need to go get a bassinet and a diaper bag. I found one online that I LOVE and want to order today. I took my dresser out of my room so I can make room for the bassinet and what not. I need to figure out how to organize everything and his clothes now though.