I am never going to be happy with the idea of moving to Mt. Vernon. Rob is trying to get a job at General tire, so he can make good money. He said if he can find an equal, or better job here after we save money then we can move back. But honestly, that doesn't make me happy because I don't want to move there. Period.
General tire has 12 hour shifts. That me sitting with a new baby by myself for 12 hours. I don't want his family to help. Is that mean? I want to be around MY family. I want to know that my dog is being taken care of, who I can't take because how am I going to walk a dog outside with a baby?
I'm not fond of the idea AT ALL. I feel like I can't go out and get a good paying job because I'm pregnant. So I'm stuck tagging along to his decisions. I get that they're the "smartest" but they are the ones that are going to make me the most unhappiest.
I'm telling you right now, me moving there will fuck our relationship up. I will resent him so bad, and I'll be so unhappy that I'll ship my self right on back to Highland. I just don't know what to do? The problem here is money, and finding a place here to live. I think I'm just going to tell him straight up that I am NOT moving to Mt. Vernon. That the idea of it makes me so unhappy, that I know if I end up going there that our relationship will suffer from it. I feel so much more happier with him when he's here in Highland with me.
I know that I love Rob, but his decisions are whats making me unhappy therefore he's making me unhappy right now... does that make sense?
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