I wanted to wait until I got up today to blog about this so I can be more calm. But guess what? I'm still not.
My mom made a comment to me last night, that set everything off. "I'm not as excited about you being pregnant because you're moving". Then she proceeds to tell me that it's not a good idea, and that everyone needs me here. Does she not understand how fucking hard this is on me already?!
So thanks to those comments, I couldn't stop thinking about how much I'm going to miss everyone, even my dogs. My little man, my jojo. The girls. Then I got to thinking, if he even going to bring me up enough so MY family can bond with the baby, or is it just going to be his famiy bonding with it?! I cried constant tears until I decided to go to sleep. Now I'm fighting back tears this morning.
I am SO UNHAPPY about moving to Mt. Vernon. I'm excited about being able to live with Rob, decorate the house, and see my friends but guess what? That's it. I tried so hard to think positive about everything, but I'm down right unhappy about it. I'm fucking pregnant. This is my FIRST pregnancy. I want to be around people that I am comfortable with and love. I want them to be able to bond with my baby. Yes, my baby. All Rob did was have sex with me, I have to go through the pregnancy and labor. So right now, this is my baby.
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