Tomorrow is finally Christmas eve and I've just now tried finding something to wear this weekend. I feel like nothing looks good and I wish I could just throw on some jeans, a t-shirt and a hoodie, but I really want to look nice. I tried on some things and finally came to an agreement even though I'm going to be wearing the same pair of jeans all weekend. I'm trying not to complain about feeling unattractive though because well, let's face it.. I'm pregnant. There is no sense in complaining because the reason I don't feel attractive is for my baby's health, which is more important. I just need to keep in mind that after I have the baby, I'm going to do all in my power to get back down to my original weight. I lost 20 pounds before, and I know I can do it again!
I'm starting to have bittersweet feelings about moving again. I think my mom is purposly trying to make it harder on me. I feel fine with it until she makes a comment, which kind of ticks me off. I'm an adult, it's time for me to leave. It's like she doesn't understand that. I can't live at home forever. I have my own family now. (I love the sound of that.)
I'm trying to be positive, with Christmas this weekend and all. But it's so hard to not let people piss you off. Whether they're doing it on purpose, or accidently. I feel like a walking time bomb sometimes, waiting to explode on someone if they piss me off. But they're just people after all. Thinking that thier opinions matter more than anyone elses just like the rest of us.
I just got a strong craving for cake frosting, damnit.
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