Hormones?

I've started to feel somewhat depressed lately. I think I'm just terrified of what's to come, and my future. I've ALWAYS wanted a baby. Ten to be exact. That was my dream when I was a little girl. I was going to become a baby doctor and have ten babies. So why am I having these negative feelings?

I think it has to do with hormones and anxiety. My anxiety is out of the roof. There's so many things I am terrifed to do, that I'm going to HAVE to do. It scares me to death. Things aren't always as bad as they seem though. They never are.

It's so loud in my house right now and I want to go scream at everyone to stfu.

I told Rob how I was feeling and he's going to try his hardest to come Saturday after work. Even though he has to work Sunday. I need him so much, I hate this stupid distance and work.

Nothing worth fighting for is easy though.