Decisions

Rob came up Tuesday. I started my period on Saturday, and usually on my period we think it's ok to go "all the way".. and i mean all the way. I'm not purposly trying to get pregnant, but I figure if it happens, it happens. We both want children. It was the third day of my period though, so I was a bit iffy about it. Well on Wednesday, my fourth day (my period usually lasts five days), he decides to go all the way. I told him if I got pregnant, it was all on him. I'm in baby mode, so on my fifth day (today) we went all the way again.

Things always seem great during the spur of a moment, but when you get time to over think shit, is when you start to regret it. I'm not saying I regret what happened, but I'm kind of freaking out about it. I know everything will be ok, but I have this fear of getting fat. I also have a fear of money issues. I want to give my baby everything I can so it can grow up satisfied. Until my next period comes around, no more going all the way.

His dad owns a car detail place and he's detailing a car that Rob's looking at. He asked my opinion because he'd have a car payment if he got it. I told him if he really wants it, and thinks it'd be more reliable then to go for it. He told me that if we're going to start a family then we'll need a better car than what he has now. That made me so happy to hear. I really need to find some kind of part time job. I'm studying the rules of the road to get my license and then maybe it'll be easier. I hate anxiety and fears. I'm not going to let that shit ruin my life anymore.

I posted this picture on my facebook, and Rob's dad commented on it saying "You'll make a good dad someday, but don't rush it." 

I appreciate advice, but not negative advice. So I hope if it comes down to it, that no one gives me their negative opinions. It's annoying. I want nothing but positivity around me.