Nerves

I know I'm not the only person in this world who is nervous about becoming a first time parent. This is what I've wanted my whole life, though. To get married, have babies. But now that the time is creeping up rather quickly, I'm so nervous!

I know that I'll never be a "perfect" parent, but I really want to be able to give my children everything they need. I want to give them the amazing childhood that I had.

I think my main concern is being so far away from my family. I want Blake to be really close to them. If I'm able to come back at least a week, once a month then I'll be happy. I've decided to stay at my mom's for a couple of weeks after I have Blake so that she can help me get into a routine, and I'll have time to heal. She's going to take vacation days and Rob works ridiculous hours. Hopefully we won't be stuck in Mt. Vernon for a long time.