Feeling unattractive

Of course, it's normal during pregnancy. Right? Big stomach (hips, butt, thighs, double chin), weight gain. What girl wouldn't feel unattractive at some point? I'm actually feeling better about myself today though. My newly thick, fast growing hair could just be the cure. I'm going to be sad when it goes away!

I weighed myself this morning and I'm back down to 113 pounds. I don't know how I lost two pounds, but I'm not complaining. My next appointment is April 25 (I'll be 31 weeks). I'm pretty excited about going over to Breese and meeting my last doctor. I can't believe I'm nearly two months away. I'm so ready to push (or get him cut out) of me!

Still uneasy about the move away from home. I know it's just a measly hour, but when I lived there away from my extended family for 15 years, I just wasn't as close to them as I am now. My aunt's house is walking distance from mine, and my grandma is on the same side of town. I want Blake to be very close to my family, the way I am.

Don't get me wrong, I'm excited about being with Rob daily, instead of for a week every other week (these last few weeks have been an exception, and hard). But I'm going to feel so damn lonely. Especially with his new working hours. He may get three days off, but he'll be mostly sleeping those 3 days. At least for now. Once Blake gets here, he's going to have to kiss that goodbye. Is it wrong that I want Blake to be closer to my family? Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones talking.